searching
Sometimes I’m wondering whether life is just a big chase for answers. Don’t we always ask questions? Starting when we are kids and try to grasp the world we’ve been born into. Later - maybe starting around puberty - about other people, like “what does he/she think about me?” “why is he acting like this?” “what does she mean when she sais that?” …
And later there is adolescence - when you are juristically grown up (18 or maybe 21) but don’t feel really matured or grown-up yet. Though we are always searching for who we really are I think the identity crisis has its climax in this phase when we are suppossed to enter adulthood and take our place in the rigorous pattern of our society. Fit in or die. Just the questions now differ from back then. It’s more about - which way is right, does this person fit in my plan -what IS my plan? How to go on, which descision will bring me closer to what I want to reach and who I want to be? And what is it I (ME MYSELF) want to reach, instead of what is being imposed on me - by parents, friends, mentors, society…
Later, of course, the searching has not stopped, but the intesity thends to be a little lower, since in most cases we have found our path and it is rather about the fine-tuning than the general direction.
In order to answer all those questions mankind has thought of hundreds of ways and tools to help us find guidance… astrology, numerology, meditation, hand-reading, rune reading, … And all to find out about who we are and we are going to. The hip and modern version are personality tests, teling us what kind of student, employee, lover, parent, manager and what-ever-else we are. Does it help? We don’t actually know, but it might help some people feel better, thus it serves the purpose.The probably is no patent remedy. We need to listen into ourselves, turn off the voices that are trying to influence us, try not to become unsettled by someone who does not understand our dreams and urges - in the same time we should not try to put value on different motivations and plans, and judge on anyone else’s dreams since it is up to every individual itself finding his/her inner centre is his/her own way! So listen to what your inner self tells you is your way but don’t blindly ignore well meant advice from those who like you - take it into consideration - and then listen again ;-)